Before my graduation i had to work for internship for three months. At the office i worked in people loved me, i was the youngest and nerdy and geekiest chap around so they wanted me to say longer (i too wanted to stay because I was learning a lot in that environment) And i ended up working there for a year. Last week I was immersed in deep five years old nostalgia while i stumbled at the recommendation letter i received from the CEO when i resigned. In those days I had all the energy, regularly over-night i used to crush in the office on my desk. I ate on computers, breath computers dust, slept on keyboard. I massaged(scratched) myself with mouse.  While working in that office, though i enjoyed every moment of it I knew  from my college days that my brains are wired differently( to work for myself). That is why back in good old days 2004-5 I  launched a website and optimized it to earn from Adsense Ads, While my classmates wanted to work for so and so multi-national companies. I knew that i knew i’m never gonna work for anyone. (Though in college days i used to say i wanna work ONLY for Google, later i outgrow that and wanted to build company and sell it to google. I still secretly lust on that front.)  Between then and now sooooo many things happen, i saw myself evolved through tough situations. So FlyingCocoon is one of those things that a happened in between then and now (started early 2008 and much didn’t happen in between Josh left to Bangalore and i was busy trying out there things). I’m lucky! I have many people i love and value like Josh beside me. For many entrepreneurs finding a co-founder has been likened to getting married and like a marriage it can be the best or the worst thing to happen to you. Now am runing a (Lean)scrappy startup I’m pushing myself, despite all the limitations, swearing i have to make this work, no matter what. I don’t know how many people understand the intensity but Running a startup without any funding is definitely a hard life. Even with funding, it is a lot of work. I remember Conan O'Brien's quoted what  Nietzsche famously said ‘Whatever doesn’t kill you makes you stronger.’ But what he failed to stress is that IT ALMOST KILLS YOU.  You know, The stresses of running a poorly performing company or the frustrations of not closing enough deal almost kills you.  I was absorbed so much, I stopped caring about myself and things around me much. Few trusted friends came and told me Emmy pls take care of yourself  you are underweight & you look like a shit. I still didn’t care much. Sometimes dreams make us insane. And those who are around us who don’t know what’s going on inside of us looks at as commenselseless-lunatic. That part has never bothered me ever, because to some degree i’m iconoclast. What the society think doesn’t bother me zilch while my dream is at stake.

I sipped my coffee, Josh also sipped his coffee and continued talking i didn’t concentrate on what all he said new he moved on to the second point what the guy wrote about sachin’s NEW DAY, its is pretty much similar to what paul says  But one thing I do: Forgetting what is behind and straining toward what is ahead,  I press on toward the goal to win the prize for which God has called me. Emmy In God’s kingdom Faith is your currency, Have faith in a new day. Its By faith gentile became a Jew. I hope you remember Abraham’s story how he birthed a new nation. Because he believed God it was counted unto him as righteousness. He was not right but he believed God is so good. And guess what? God said if you believe me like that I'll go ahead and i'll credit your account. And it was counted as righteous. Its like God saying I know you are not perfect, but i'll take your faith as a currency. I'll bless you. give you land and everything.